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18th-Nov-2009 12:29 am - centerfinger
the harlot
you should know girls... that girls who smoke are not cool nor sexy... its like taking the "sex" out of "sexy" and what is left? the letter Y... yes.. Y why you do that girls? who you wanna impress eh? its a freaking turn off... yes turn off... like when you take a cold shower in winter in antarctica in south pole during the ice age kinda turn off... "yeah but guys do it too~~" yeah but guys are fools by nature... and guys dont get pregnant... guys die early anyway... 

and whats with the "aku sexy lah siol" attitudes? so what if you showed more skin? so what if you got cleavage? so what if you can bat your eyelids till the fake lashes fall off... so what with the tight tight leggings which newsflash are not pants and makes your asses saggy... i thought girls know by nature what is sexy... do you need a guy to teach you what sexy is? come on... stop it with the freaking mtv artists wannabes... stop it with the "i created this look ya know?" poseurs... stop it with the "aku terror main guitar tong bawah kolong lah pantat" minah rockers... stop it with the "see i can smile the same smile in 327926 photos so put me on the covers" ... stop it with "aku nak pakai tudung... ehhh tak jadi ah.... ehhh... pakai balik pakai balik"... stop it with your fake selves.. stop believing your own lies... stop making them real... they will never be... so where is your identity? who are you anyway? who are you?  

you wanna know the reason behind this? its guys... it men... they want you to be like this... they want you to be worthless so they can manipulate you easy... they want you to be sluts so they can throw you away when they are done... they want to to powder yourself up for them so you only focus on looking nice... and forgot you have brains and a heart... they turn you into meat... meats with itty bitty pieces of cloth you call fashion... they make you crave their attention till you got fed up and turn to another guy... and after he gets fed up you turn to a girl... they get you all caught up in their definition of "love"... which is another shitload of crap we throw at you gals throughout the ages... and still you fell for it... Guys 1986496319 x infinity  Girls 0... come on... make it a challenge... make us earn our keeps... its so unrewarding winning a tainted trophy... i mean seriously... if you're crap, you'll most likely give birth to crap... only gems retains its value... and gems are hard to find... 



17th-Nov-2009 11:52 pm - deactivate
the skeptic
people are not the faces on your computer screen
people are not the names on your cellphones
people are not the comments on your blogs
people are not the tweets, chirps and cock a doodle donts
people are not the videos you youtube
people are not the songs you imeem
people are not the words you "Rashid liked this"
people are not the dream you dream

therefore,
i wont be fooled by painted happy faces nor sad pretenders
i wont be fooled by idle chatters nor seemingly wise phrases 
i wont be fooled by the parades of fools nor their hidden agendas
i wont be fooled by my own selfish urge to be impetuous
i wont be fooled by silky tresses nor the taste of skin
i wont be fooled by the glamour of these wayward queens
i wont be fooled by shallow cajolery nor outward provocations
i wont be fooled by clamour of majority nor the illusory infatuations
i wont be fooled by simulated camaraderie nor counterfeit patriotism
i wont be fooled by proven ideologies nor heartless capitalism

11th-Nov-2009 11:56 am - bloodywink
the mad


behind this tragic mask i wear, is a grin of thousand fangs
the blacker these tears i cry, the deeper into flesh they gleefully sank
the harlot spits her subtle sins, the buttons undone, the fever begins
pulls the wool over one eye, lets take your fairy-tales on a spin
Little Red Riding Hoods stay away, dine not with these hungry teeth
"what big words you have" they say, i say "the better to fool you with"
a poison apple for the all Snow Whites, your Cinderellas their midnight hours,
slumbers eternal and weeps endless, forget your kisses and glass slippers,
your princes elopes with their lovers and your legend is left unended,
why else would you dance with the wolf and let your hearts be slaughtered,
or have you hope to have this beast slain and in his death a prince remain?
dear Belles, a dozen roses would not stir a Tin Man, much less a rose tear-stained
why chase white rabbits down tunnels and sit with mad hatters for lunch?
why look through the looking glass when you know you have a hunch,
that Love is all but the flick of the wand, the greedy rub of the lamp
and that Genie's three wishes is the Wicked Witch's classic sham
so fly Magic Carpets, escape while you can, make it a lick and not a promise,
for there is never a happily ever after, for all the lies you've been kissed with.
 


















photo by kryzad terrordash (deviantart)
5th-Nov-2009 10:32 pm - hi-five
the skeptic

Your result for The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test...

5 - the Observer

Thanks for taking the test !

you chose BZ - your Enneagram type is FIVE (aka "The Thinker").

 


"I need to understand the world"

 


Observers have a need for knowledge and are introverted, curious, analytical, and insightful.


How to Get Along with Me


• Be independent, not clingy.

• Speak in a straightforward and brief manner.

• I need time alone to process my feelings and thoughts.

• Remember that If I seem aloof, distant, or arrogant, it may be that I am feeling uncomfortable.

• Make me feel welcome, but not too intensely, or I might doubt your sincerity.

• If I become irritated when I have to repeat things, it may be because it was such an effort to get my thoughts out in the first place.

• don't come on like a bulldozer.

• Help me to avoid my pet peeves: big parties, other people's loud music, overdone emotions, and intrusions on my privacy.


 


What I Like About Being a FIVE


• standing back and viewing life objectively

• coming to a thorough understanding; perceiving causes and effects

• my sense of integrity: doing what I think is right and not being influenced by social pressure

• not being caught up in material possessions and status

• being calm in a crisis


 


What's Hard About Being a FIVE


• being slow to put my knowledge and insights out in the world

• feeling bad when I act defensive or like a know-it-all

• being pressured to be with people when I don't want to be

• watching others with better social skills, but less intelligence or technical skill, do better professionally


 


FIVEs as Children Often


• spend a lot of time alone reading, making collections, and so on

• have a few special friends rather than many

• are very bright and curious and do well in school

• have independent minds and often question their parents and teachers

• watch events from a detached point of view, gathering information

• assume a poker face in order not to look afraid

• are sensitive; avoid interpersonal conflict

• feel intruded upon and controlled and/or ignored and neglected


 


FIVEs as Parents


• are often kind, perceptive, and devoted

• are sometimes authoritarian and demanding

• may expect more intellectual achievement than is developmentally appropriate

• may be intolerant of their children expressing strong emotions

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele, The Enneagram Made Easy. Discover the 9 Types of People.


Harper: San Francisco, 1994, 161 pages


You liked the test? so S P R E A D I T ! tell everyone!!!


(copypaste the HTML-code from below to your profile or blog!)


please, leave a comment HERE

you wanna know MORE? so check out, what Wikipedia says about your type... ...even more you'll find in Google


_____________________

 


You are not completely happy with the result?!

You chose BZ. Use the BACK-button of your browser to see the other options!

Take The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test at HelloQuizzy

29th-Oct-2009 12:12 am - message
the harlot
"   I love Summer.
    She doesn't lie.
    She is truth.
    And that hurts.
    Truth hurts.
    She hurts too    " 
29th-Oct-2009 12:03 am - moonsummer
the rose
what are you telling me, city of whispers? 
hushing my shadows and brittle numbers
cradling lust to a dreamless slumber
this homeless heart sleeps in the gutters

when icy winds keeps me warm and angel feathers
falls like autumn leaves in cold harsh summer
why the sky within rains not its bitter tears
when silver linings blurs and grey clouds in tatters

black paper cranes and pale white flowers
parades the endless crimson rivers
as crows turns to swans and their colours
blankets this fool with the light of his errors

so thread ever so lightly on a heart so restless
as this moon thief is no queller of raging thunders
and as heartless time rushes to work on others
writes the next page another of life's chapters

when love lies drunk and pretends to be sober
she heartpukes a lifetime of weary hangovers
she dances under streetlights and grimly gathers
forget-me-nots to remember her winter

when will she renounce her fairy-tale fever
shall we serenade to life or shall we never ever
is this "once upon a time" not meet its "ever after"?
will you be my (500) days of summer?




photo by naimane (deviantart
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23rd-Oct-2009 06:53 am - humannequin
the mad
 hey sullen morning, could you not spare me a smile? the night has not been kind to me lately... to sleep dreamless yet eyes awake... only to find solace in my hearts aching laments... oh caged heart, spare me your grief and anguish... i am already impoverished enough as it is... the world has no use of such currency... for it has enough... a hand should not be so outstretched to touch the moon... for you'll only stir her reflections never her gaze... a heart should not be so winged to challenge the sun... for waxen wings melt... so too fleeting illusions... indeed i am a shadow chasing shadows... is there no end to this lunacy? where is the dirt for me to wear proud on my face? hey vicious world, would you unhand me and release me from your bonds, my grim warden... have i not paid my penance in full? would you accept my tattered soul for a taste of sweet freedom? or this crumpled heart for a guiltless conscience? have i not sown enough discord in your name? have i not strangled my dreams for redemption? have i not smothered love in her sleep for cruel recompense? yet again today you send me out... yet again today, i bear this burden in your steed... to wear again my faceless mask... to don again this crooked smile... to once again, say these wretched words " everything will be fine "...
22nd-Oct-2009 11:17 pm - assume
the broken
we stumble upon silence and left it open wide
we stitch our wounds open and let the hurt reside
we scream sweet delusions and beg to be inspired
we slip into shadows and blind ourselves to light
we serve the empty shallows and deep we are denied
we scavenge for temptations in every single bite
we scar ourselves bitter and swallow not our pride
we strip our hearts naked and keep it all inside

19th-Oct-2009 10:46 pm - earwyrm
the forgotten
The Ataris - The Cheyenne Line 







In silence, I like to think aloud.
You say this is the end.
I know it's not the end.
I took a picture of heaven when we broke down
Across the Cheyenne Line.
I never will forget
The color of that sky and all the lights.

We missed the point of living
So caught up in this moment.
We threw out all convictions
And traded them for substance.
This life you hold so near will fade in time.


And so it goes.
No, we won't let go.
If you are alive, then be truly alive.
Just open up your eyes. Pay attention to the signs.
The color of this sky, an endless night.

We missed the point of living
So caught up in this moment.
We threw out all convictions
And traded them for substance.
This life we hold so near will fade in time.


Spent wasted on that line.
It's time you found some frame of mind.
This life you hold so near will fade in time.

We missed the point of living
So caught up in this moment.
We threw out all convictions
And traded them for substance.
This life we hold so near.

And so it goes, no, we won't let go.
And so it goes. No, we won't let go.
This life you hold so near will fade in time. 
19th-Oct-2009 01:37 am - clap
the rose
 did you remember her tears sparkling like fallen dews... did you remember her intoxicating smile that got you drunk... and what a long hangover it was... years after, you're still that snail... and though you hid inside your shell, with your angry fist in the air, mad at the world, she calls you out... and she was the freshest sunflower that revived you... she was that shine that blinds your evil eye shut... she was that strawberry roll with the sugar icing... she was that waffle ice cream that was your guilty pleasure... and guilty as charged you are... and the price for that mistake is not to be able to say " somewhere between all our laughs, long talks, stupid little fights and all our jokes, i fell in love" and i did... and crawled out of it again before falling too deep... it is not regret that haunts me nor the ghosts of our pasts... but these diamonds breadcrumbs you left behind, these little butterfly wings that soon stir a storm... at the end of the rainbow, i found you... hand in hand, with your chosen knight... hand in hand, your are the bride-to-be... odd as it would seem, i applaud your journey with a heart as fulfilled as a pot of gold... fair maiden should i whisper in your ear for... a piece of your cake? or a piece of your heart?

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